THE MOST HECTIC DAY

Audrianna woke up really early (before sunrise) and wasnt feeling well. Sore throat, tons of snot coming out of her nose, etc., so she stayed home today. I had to get up early to take Marissa to school, class started at 8. had to go by the water department and drop off the water bill first so water didnt get shut off. Dropped Marissa off at school, went to Burger King for breakfast (drive-thru) came home and ate and laid down for a few minutes. Then my son Nathan called so I got up and talked to him until 1020 when I had to go get Randa and take her to her WIC appt. Dropped her off and then got a call from Sonya and my son Lucas that someone had run all the gas out of their car last night and it wouldnt start. So headed over there to take them to get some gas. Marissa called before I got there and wanted me to come get her, so I turned around and went back to Cameron and picked her up. Went to Sonya/Lucas' and Marissa went and got their gas while I sat inside with Audrianna and Austin (who by the way is sick, also). Marissa came back with the gas but the car still wouldnt start. Then Randa called and I had to go pick her up. Sonya needed a ride to the grocery store, also. We piled in the car, went to get Randa, then Marissa wanted me to take her back to Cameron, so I did that. Took Randa to get something to eat, dropped her and Austin off at home, took Sonya to the grocery store and we both did a little shopping. Left grocery store, went to get Randa and Austin, dropped Randa off at work, took Sonya home, had to stop and get gas, came home. Unloaded groceries and kids. Ate my lunch quickly. Let Gucci (dog) out of my room where he had pulled my curtains down and pooped on them. he had also gone into the bathroom and urinated in a bucket of vinyl doctor type gloves that I have in the bathroom for Audrianna to use. About 100 gloves at least. Too expensive to buy more so took them outside and washed them, wondering if they will ever dry completely. Put curtains in laundry basket and set it on porch. Put food away. Now sitting down at computer exhausted. The left shift key on my keyboard is not working so excuse me when some things aren't capitalized, etc. Now I hear Austin in the kitchen pulling things out of a cabinet. I better go check.

Long time no see

Just a quick note to say hello. My health hasnt been the best lately and home life would take hours to explain. Will write more later. God bless all of my friends in the south who have been affected by tornadoes and bad weather.

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My Review of Tall plus Fleece 2-pc pantset by All American Comfort®

Originally submitted at OneStopPlus

A soft, comfy easy fit with the most colors you’ll find anywhere, in tall plus sizes.

• Crewneck
• Tunic length 32"
• Rib trim
• Elastic-waist, straigh leg pants
• Pants are 32" inseam
• Washable cotton/polyester knit, USA and imported

Tall plus Fleece 2-pc pantset by All American Comfort®

Soft as a cloud

By JanisWillNot from Lawton, OK on 2/24/2011

 

4out of 5

Fit: Feels too big

Pros: Comfortable, Stylish

Best Uses: Cold Weather

Describe Yourself: Beginner

Was this a gift?: No

I thought it would run small to size but it was actually right on. I ordered a 4X and I could have done with a 2X probably in the pants. The top is great, and it is so soft and extra long which I love.

(legalese)

Freakin Friday - I hate weekends

School today.  Hooray.  I was trying to see how many days Audrianna had gone to school in the past four weeks and I think it was 3 days.  Too much sickness and snow in the past month.  I am hoping that things will get back to normal now.  I can tell it has taken its toll on me.  I have been so depressed and short-tempered.  All she wants to do is eat, eat, eat.  "My tummy is hurting".  That is even worse to me than "I'm hungry".  Because then I have to remember that it is painful to be starving.  The more depressed I am, the quicker I am to let her eat.  I try to keep it to a minimum and low cal but the last few days I have just been too ill myself to care.  So to make up for it, we had salads for lunch and dinner to offset those in between meal snacks.  We both enjoyed the salads and that was a plus.  She even helped me make the lunch salads.  Well, she watched.  We tried garbanzo beans, beets, shredded carrots, 1/2 hardboiled egg (white only) and sugar snap peas yesterday in her salad and she liked it.   She wondered who made the beets "pink".  They were actually deep dark red (the normal color of beets) but she seemed to think they were pink.  

I have been feeling like a failure and I am trying to remember that it is just the stress of being trapped in the house for all these days with minimal contact with others.  I feel like I am in solitary confinement.  The more I stay in, the harder it is to go out.  I feel I am becoming a recluse.  It is just easier to stay in but not necessarily healthier.

I do have an IEP meeting on Monday morning that I will be going too and for the first time ever, I do not dread it.  The new teacher makes all the difference in the world.  I am very happy with how things are going for the most part.  There are a few things I need to mention about things the assistant has said but nothing that cannot be managed easily.  

I tried pink text today to see if it could cheer me up.  Maybe a little, but the Warm Delights brownie I just cooked in the microwave and ate probably cheered me up a little more.  Warm chocolate and a glass of milk.  Delightful.  Makes me feel cozy and ready to lay down.  Might as well, Audrianna has been asleep for an hour.

This is just rambling and I am sure nobody is interested in the ramblings of an old woman but tonight thats all there is.  I really wish there was a community for us.  I really need to live close to people like me, with a child like mine, who I could visit once in a while, and my child could play with someone like her.  I wonder if there would be government funding for such a thing, some kind of apartment building just to start out.   I know it wouldnt work out for some families, but I think there are others that it would.  

More rambling.  Gotta go.  Goodnight my friends.

Janis

SUPER BOWL SUNDAE

The super bowl is on and I just ate some ice cream so I spelled it Sundae instead of Sunday.  HAHA.  I crack myself up.  I am not watching the game.  I tried to watch the halftime show but it was boring.  I keep missing the commercials.  I saw the YouTube video of the National Anthem getting messed up.  I guess I'll go back to the Law and Order marathon.

I am praying for no snow tonight so she can go to school tomorrow.  Being cooped up in this house for 23 days has worn on me.  Getting out today was good.  Went grocery shopping but shelves were pretty bare.  Stocked up on meat (just in case we get snowed in again).  Lucked out and got the last dozen eggs in town I think.  (Technically only 10, there was one missing from the carton and one was cracked but hey, I had been to 5 stores and hadnt found any and this was the last carton on the shelf).

I bought the wrong size Goodnights and that upset me.  Now I have the jumbo pack of the wrong size.  I bought some small Depends to wear over the Goodnights so I guess I will tear the goodnight into some kind of pad and place in the Depend.  I cant think of anyone who could use them.  Her dad was supposed to buy her some Goodnights today but he disappeared.

Well, I'm off to lay down and watch TV.  Audrianna woke up at 4 a.m. today and went to sleep at 6 p.m. so I am sure I am in for another early rising.  I would love to go to a hotel for 24 hours and sleep straight through.  Oops I just remembered I forgot to feed and water the dogs.  Dang, my memory is awful.

I am rambling and I know it is boring, so goodnight everyone.  I hope your team wins.


Janis

MONSTER MOTHER

I HATE SNOW DAYS, SICK DAYS, VACATIONS AND HOLIDAYS OF ANY KIND. There, I've said. I hate it when my child is home for 24 hours a day for more than 2 days at a time. She has been home 19 of the last 20 days due to illness, snow, oversleeping (once). We are stranded inside because the wind chill factors are below zero. Cant even go outside to play it is so cold. We are eating crap food because we ran out of healthy (mostly). I made chicken and noodles last night using legs and thighs that I have had forever and was never going to use. We even had mashed potatoes and pea salad. Fat, fat, fat. Someone brought me a package of ground beef yesterday but how would they know I only buy super extra lean ground beef and they gave me that 70/30 crap. I could rinse the fat off if my hot water worked. It is still frozen. The snow in my living room has not melted yet. All day long, all I hear is I am hungry. Well darn it, I do not feel good. My thumb still hurts, I have a headache, you wake me up at 3 in the a.m. and do not go back to sleep. You ask me questions while I am trying to go back to sleep and in my stupor I think I have answered you but that is only in my head. I have not actually spoken. So you scream at me. So I try to mumble the answer as best I can although I am EXHAUSTED. I lay in bed until 9 a.m. in this stupor of not sleeping, but not really awake, and every now and then I hear - my tummy is hurting me - so I hand you a piece of a blueberry muffin that I have under my pillow for some reason. I have the bottle of spray margarine in the window sill and I spray it twice. This happens about every 30-45 minutes until I finally get up and put the rest of the muffin away. Now I am up. The inside of my mouth feels raw and hurts, like I burned it on something. I am sick of Dora, Diego, Ruby and Max, Barney, but most of all myself. Why don't I want to play games with her. We have them. Why don't I want to read to her? We have tons of books. Why don't I want to do anything but lay down and cover up and be left alone? I feel like a monster. BUT even though I feel this way, yesterday she looked at me and said "Mommy, I'm glad you aren't like my daddy". So even though I feel like a monster, she knows who the real monster is.


So I will sing the song from Annie "The sun will come out tomorrow......." and hopefully it will, the snow will melt, she will get back into the routine of going to school.  That will be a chore.  She has been home for so many days, she won't want to go back.  I feel for the teacher and the staff those first few days and for me on those mornings when I am again playing the cheerleader, trying to think of a million reasons she needs to go to school; her friends miss her, she has to learn, it is the law, etc.  


Actually, the sun is out today but doubt it is warm enough to melt anything.  Just got a phone call from the guardian of Marissa's best friend.  She was just checking on me.  That in itself brought me to tears.  She is bringing me some toilet paper.  A necessity that I am almost out of.  So now, I am tearful and depressed.   So I'm off to watch TV.  Cant do much cleaning with just one hand although I am trying to clean an explosion in the bathroom right now.  Poop everywhere.  I think it is time for the serenity prayer.  


Peace, Love, Dove,


Janis

CABIN FEVER

This is just a quick note.  Audrianna was ill with diarrhea on Friday, January 14, was home for the weekend 15, 16, and the 17th was a holiday.  She was ill the entire week (17, 18, 19, 20, 21) and then was home the weekend 22, 23, home on the 24th, and finally back to school on 1/25/11 (her 10th birthday).  Woke up on the 26th with diarrhea again, was home today, too (the 27th).  She has been to school one stinking day in the past two weeks.  I have also been ill with the same stuff (but only for two days and add vomiting to my experience).  Then I woke up Saturday at 4 a.m. in excruciating pain from an infected hangnail which required a trip to the emergency room for an incision and drainage. I have been in pain ever since.  ER doctor said it would heal quickly, in 2 days.  I have been back to my doctor (not the ER) and had it re-drained and it is still so painful.  Still bleeding.  Just gross.  So these two weeks have been ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE.  I am at the end of my rope.  Then to top matters off, Audrianna's dad is here this evening visiting and all of a sudden he starts screaming at me about my oldest daughter who is visiting her boyfriend in Alabama.  She graduated from high school early (in December).  Her boyfriend is attending Alabama A&M.  He lives with his mother and her husband.  Marissa's plan is to return to Lawton so she can go to prom and walk across the stage for graduation in May.  Then she plans on going to the local university.  Tay keeps screaming that I let her "shack up".  His reaction to this situation is bizarre.  Its not like he is father of the year or anything.  Granted Marissa is still 17 but she is so smart and has such a good head on her shoulders, I dont see any harm in her visit.

So anyway, I am getting ready to go to bed.  I am PRAYING that Audrianna goes to school tomorrow.  I am tempted to send her with a disposable sleep panty on just in case.  I need a day to myself, to take care of myself.  I am tired.  It shows on my face.  Everyone who sees me comments on it.  I am worn out.  I have been for the longest time now but it is getting worse.

Does anyone else's child have a hard time getting rid of diarrhea.  I sometimes wonder if it is because they don't throw up so they don't get rid of the "bacteria or virus stuff" as quickly as they would if they could throw up.  The "bug" has to travel through their entire system.  I have no idea if that makes sense but she sure has had a hard time getting over this.

Her aunt put two French braids in Audrianna's hair this evening with some barrettes she got for her birthday.  I could only get one picture to go through when I sent it from my phone and it has something wrong with it  but you can see the braids.

Janis

3D Day

Three D's for today:

1. Dentist.  Took Audrianna to the dentist today to get her cap put back on one of her teeth.  Her teacher called me last Thursday to tell me the cap had fallen off her tooth.  I asked her if maybe the tooth had fallen out but she said no, it was definitely just the cap.  She sent the cap home in a baggie in A's backpack.  I called the dentist and made an appointment and stuck the cap in my purse.  Her dad checked in her mouth and saw part of a tooth and I informed him that she only had little pegs left after they removed all the decay.  Well dummy me.  It was her entire tooth that had fallen out.  The permanent tooth pushed it out and you can see the permanent tooth.  I just took the teacher's word for it and never checked for myself.  What is wrong with me? Just what I wanted to do this morning, get up early on a "stay-home day" when Audrianna was not feeling well and  be at the dentist office at 7:50 a.m. to be worked in.  Fortunately we were out by 9.

2.  Diarrhea.  Audrianna is sick today with diarrhea, not so much frequency but liquid bowel movements.  But she definitely does not feel good.  Just laying around and NO APPETITE.  She still wants her meals but she just lays the plate on the bed next to her and looks at them.  She has a little bit of fever, too.  She is definitely not herself today.

3.  Daddy.  Today, she wants her daddy and he has actually stepped up to the plate today.  He is here right now, spoon-feeding her some jello and giving her something to drink.  Every once in a while he redeems himself and does something good and nice.  I told him knowing him was like riding a roller coaster.  When he is good, he is very good, but then he plunges down to bad, and the ride downhill is not fun (nothing like a roller coaster) so maybe I should rethink that comparison.  Unfortunately the good never outweighs the bad.  But bless her little heart, she loves him no matter what.

So now I am going to lay down next to my sick little girl and snuggle up with her.  Goodnight everyone.  The tooth fairy better show up tonight.


Janis

GOODBYE TEACHER

Many of you who know us, will remember that Audrianna was having some pretty serious problems at school.  These problems improved overnight when she got a new teacher.  Ms. Hodge is a dream.  I will not mention her previous teacher by name but we are so happy she is no longer teaching Audrianna's class.  Today, I was in the living room and found Audrianna's class picture from last year torn to shreds.  I was upset at first but went in her room and asked her why she did that.  She said "Those teachers were mean to me, they hurt me, so goodbye teachers."  I did not scold her for tearing up the picture.  I thought it was a good way for her to express the anger she must have felt for being so mistreated at school.  No child should have to go through what she went through. Seclusion, restraint, isolation, bruises, belittling comments.  Last week when I took Audrianna to school after an appointment, she went up to the computer teacher and asked for a hug.  The computer teacher looked at me and then said "No, I cannot hug you."  I looked puzzled and asked why.  Audrianna's former teacher had told everyone at school (adults) that I said no one was allowed to hug Audrianna.  I was furious once more with this teacher who is long gone and out of state.  I reassured everyone that I had never said that but one assistant still refused to hug her when she asked for a hug.  I left a note for the principal telling her and she said she knew I had not said that and she would clear the matter up with all the staff.  

FYI:  Audrianna loves to give hugs and last summer at camp, they gave her an award as best hugger.  This was a new category just for her.  She gives awesome hugs and is a loving child.  I think our kids with PWS are great huggers.  

Pink Boots and High Anxiety

Audrianna got some pink boots in the mail the other day along with two pairs of tights and a long sleeve shirt. She is modeling one outfit in the picture. The boots are a big hit. Pink is definitely her favorite color. We are very fortunate to have such generous friends.

Today, she is home sick (and wearing the pink boots with her sleep shirt) with an intestinal problem. I am trying to put it delicately but there is nothing delicate about diarrhea, especially in a child who has trouble making it to the bathroom quick enough. Needless to say, my morning started out badly. Cleaning poop off her, the bed, the pillows (she was trying to crawl out at the head of the bed). My motto is "It's always about the poop."

All the time I am cleaning, she is crying, afraid that I am mad, upset or disappointed. These are her three words she uses all the time. "Are you upset with me, mad or disappointed with me?" She asks this question a lot. I feel so bad for her that she worries about this. I know she asks if other people are worried, mad or disappointed with her too or I would really feel guilty, like I had given her a complex. I blame it on the high anxiety associated with PWS. She sees a mental health therapist once a week and she is trying to help her deal with some of this anxiety. Right now Audrianna's biggest worry is that I am going to die while she is still a kid. These worries are not unfounded since I almost did die this summer and I am recovering from that still. I try to reassure her but I have a hard time promising that I won't die before she is a grownup. I come as close as I can without exactly promising. I guess this is my biggest worry, too; and it is probably affecting us both. So her counselor recommended I get some counseling. Probably not a bad idea.

Well I've got to go, she is calling me.  .....

Janis

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MAKE CHANGE, BEAT CANCER

My aunt and her husband are both battling cancer.  My Uncle Howard is not doing very well at all.  He has hairy cell leukemia and his blood marrow has quit producing blood and platelets.  He is living on "borrowed blood" according to my aunt.  He has to undergo blood transfusions.  My Aunt Audie (Audrea Ann - who Audrianna is named for) has breast cancer and underwent a lumpectomy and has to have 4 more weeks of radiation.  She has to travel out of town for the radiation, not too far, but far enough, especially in this snowy weather.  Her daughter will be staying with my uncle (taking time off work 2 hours a day) to sit with her dad while her mother goes to radiation.  I am only telling this story because they mean the world to me.  I love my aunt like nobody else.  She has loved me unconditionally even when my own mother did not.  She took me into her home on more than one occasion and let me live with them when my parents changed the locks on their door and told me to never come home again.  She let me hide upstairs when my father came over to collect any presents they had ever given me so that they could give them to my younger sister.  There are no words to explain how much she means to me.  Whenever I talk to her on the phone, I feel like a little girl.  When I feel down and out, all I have to hear is her saying "I love you honey" and the world is good.  I live in Oklahoma, they live in south central Kansas, a 3 hour drive from here, but if I had a car I would be going to see them as often as possible.  I even volunteered to move back to take care of them if they need me.  I would do anything for my aunt, all she has to do is ask.

Tonight I was discussing this situation and Audrianna overheard me.  She was very concerned about their health and when I told her they both had cancer, she wanted to know if Uncle Howard could hold on until she got her money to him.  I had no idea what she was talking about.  Then she started explaining.  Her school is having a fundraiser.  Make Change, Beat Cancer.  They are collecting change for leukemia research.  She told me the only way she could get the money to him was to give it to her school and she hopes he gets it quick enough so he can be better.  I love this girl.  She took the sting out of the day.

I lost both my parents to cancer, my mother to ocular melanoma which spread to her liver and my father to lung cancer after he smoked 3 packs a day for God knows how long, all his life it seemed.  I feel like I am going through it all over again.

My Aunt Audie and Uncle Howard  (my 17-year-old daughter Marissa calls him Howard the Duck.  He is quite the character).

LEARNING TO READ

I am a fanatic about reading.  I love to read.  I always have.  When I was young, my mother had to insist that I put a book down and go outside or I would have stayed on the couch reading whenever I had spare time.  I got in trouble at school for reading.  I would open my textbook and hide the book I was reading inside of it and read in class.  When I got in trouble once at home, I told my mother if she really wanted to punish me, she shouldn't let me read anything for one week.  I love to read.  I don't get much of a chance to read anymore.  I usually stick to children's books or young adults because I can finish them quickly.  If I read a longer book, I usually have forgotten the beginning of it by the time I get to the end, if it takes me more than a few days to read.

One of the first questions I ask parents of children with PWS who are in school is "Can your child read?"  Most everyone I ask says yes.  Audrianna is in the 4th grade, special education, and can only read her name and she recognizes the word Apple in an Applebee's sign.  For Christmas I bought her 12 Weekly Reader books with CDs and for her birthday, on Jan. 25th, she is getting 3 different reading systems, thanks to the generosity of a facebook friend of mine.

Right now she is listening to the Weekly Reader CDs and looking at the books.  She is a little more concerned about keeping up with turning the pages but she is getting the hang of it.  She is now listening to/looking at Curious George.

For those who don't know me from Facebook, Audrianna got a new teacher right before Christmas.  Before that I had been considering homeschooling her because of all the difficulties with the old teacher.  The new teacher is a dream-come-true and she is working on teaching Audrianna to read.  It seems like the only thing the last teacher had been teaching was the days of the week and the months for the last 1-1/2 years.  Audrianna requested that the teacher send flashcards home and she did, but apparently I don't know the right way to do the flashcards (according to Audrianna I have to have a piece of paper and draw lines through something).  I must make a note to ask the teacher about this.

I also got some good ideas from another facebook friend of mine about cutting out words and putting them with pictures of what they are.  That reminded me of the movie The Color Purple when Celie's sister put flashcards on everything in the house, etc., when she was teaching Celie to read.  Why didn't I think of that?  You will be seeing flash cards all over my house in the next week or so.

Well Curious George is over and I have to put in another CD, the third one so far.  She is really enjoying this. So am I.  A few moments of no questions asked.  Wonderful.


Janis

Too Emotional For Words

All I have are tears and a million mixed emotions right now.  Cant explain, too tired to type.  Audrianna is asleep and well.  That is what matters more than anything.

Prader-Willi problem solving & solutions exchange

I have been trying to figure out how to add Prader-Willi problem solving & solutions exchange on my blog as some kind of badge or gadget or whatever the correct word is.  For those of you who don't know about this exchange, let me tell you a little about it.  Prader-Willi problem solving and solutions exchange is a facebook page and I am one of the administrators of this page, along with Ali and Misty.  We have 766 people who follow this page, where anyone in the PWS community can post a question, a solution, a good idea, and get responses from others.  It is a wonderful facebook page.

I have many, many facebook friends who are raising a child with PWS (mostly moms, some dads, some grandparents, recently a great-grandmother, some adults with PWS).  Facebook has been a lifesaver to me.  I was a member of a Yahoo PWS e-support group and one of the members invited me to facebook.  I already had a facebook page but never used it.  I thought it was kind of silly at the time.  But I added Jennifer as a friend and took off from there.  At that time, I barely had 30 friends and  now I have over 600.  Some I know better than others, but I feel like I know them all.  They are my family now. They understand me.  They get it.  When I complain, they know what I am talking about.  When I celebrate an accomplishment, they celebrate with me.  They have wonderful suggestions and I have developed more self-confidence because I am armed with the information I have learned from so many others who have walked this road ahead of me.  I no longer cry at IEP meetings.  The staff actually listen to me now.

Audrianna will be 10 this month and I had never met another family who had a child with PWS until this past summer.  What a life-changing event that was for both of us.  Audrianna and I went to PWS camp here in Oklahoma.  I went as her counselor although that was not required of me.  A family I met on facebook let us spend the night at their house since we had no transportation to get to camp.  We got a ride halfway to their house, they picked us up, we spent the night, they took us to camp and took us all the way home after camp.  We live about 2 hours away from them.  Their daughter is a few years older than Audrianna, her name is Audrie.  The girls had a blast.  I felt like I had known this family for so long even though we just met.

I am rambling now, not sure where I am trying to go with this.  I do want everyone to know about the Prader-Willi problem solving and solutions exchange on Facebook.  I cannot begin to describe how wonderful the sense of community and support is.  I felt so alone for so long, I NEVER want anyone else to feel that way.

I'm off to clean the house, have a great day everyone.


Janis

Blogging Exercise 101

Okay, I am going to see if I can get this to work.  I am going to try to attach a photo and also see if I can get it to show a link on facebook when I post this.  So here goes.

DAY 2 of NEW YEAR

Tomorrow is the big day, at least for me it is.  Back to school after a 14 day vacation.  Audrianna is not too excited about it.  Already came up with an excuse the other day so she wouldn't have to go on Monday.  She told me that she didn't think she would be able to go to school on Monday because her bottom would hurt if she had to sit for too long.  Have to give her credit for originality on that one.  This morning she was starting to make excuses again, when all of a sudden she remembered something.  The bus monitor used to read books to her on the bus and then quit for some reason, but she told Audrianna, at some point in time, that she would start reading books again after Christmas.  Audrianna jumped up and I had to find her bag of books.  She has had it packed for quite some time.  Now it is sitting with her backpack all ready for tomorrow morning.  I hope Miss Donna, the bus monitor, remembers because Audrianna DID NOT forget.  

I would also like to say that the Melissa and Doug magnetic responsibility chart is a Godsend in this house. Today is the 8th day of use and she has fulfilled all of her responsibilities.  I have had to remind her but I think she is getting the hang of it.  She really likes getting the magnets.  

Now she is reading over my shoulder.  She can only read her name and she is bugging me so I am going to have to sign off today.  I told her this was my journal but she isnt too sure she likes me talking about her.  

Later,

Janis

HAPPY NEW YEAR

This past year is finally over although it did go pretty fast.  A new year ahead, full of promise, perils and pitfalls.  I am getting better at picking myself and dusting myself off, thanks to all of my facebook friends who have held me up along the way this year.  I just want everyone to know how thankful I am for all my facebook friends.


Peace, love, dove.......Janis  (I think this is a quote from Cheech and Chong)